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i have decided for focus to get work....
yes i thought that i have chosen the best for my career..
before internship in astra i have get job offer in bandung
but i decided to follow in astra
i hope it will be good hope for the future
yes..nothing in my mind before i get job.!!!!
never give up!!!!!

i must make people around me happy before i feel happy..
keep spirit!!!!

from now i will open my self

disclosure
to all i keep from public

what will u say..

i will receive..

whatever you say about me...

god know me the best...

i love my god.......till i die..

good person

if you say i can solve your problem
maybe
if you say i always listen carefully to your case
i think so
if you say i always motivate you to change
well i would

and then..
what will they do..
if i hurt
if i injure
if i break
if i tire
if i want to stop the time

will they understand me..
will they know me..
will they take me out from the problem..

not just trust to everyone.......
but
how they know about me....
i need someone to understand me
to my absurd
to my trait
to my opinion

so selfish..
so annoyed

but i dont have anyone to know me better

get off my life...
if you scared of me..
avoid me..
if i tease you..

it's hurt to become indigo
when not anyone can't understand me better

sad...deepest sad..

only god....who know me the best..

this is my life

either good or bad
angel or devil
i can't stop thinking where is me
have i disappointed someone??
have i left by someone?
my colour is just blurr
from dark to light it's all mix together
though finally i get success in graduate from my major
but i still have any problem..
still
what should i do after i graduate
what i will be???
that's big question in my mind
i don't have direction to become what kind of person in the future..
yes so heavy for me to shape my life

i dont wanna lose any chance
i want to grow better
i want to develop in good way
i want people that important to me become proud of me
i wanna be the winner..

but to get all there
i must cure my life
cure my soul
cure my mind
cure my heart

stupid...heart...damn....fool...baka...
heart...
just the point now why i cant leave this deep hurt..
i wish you would feel the way i feel..