this is my life

either good or bad
angel or devil
i can't stop thinking where is me
have i disappointed someone??
have i left by someone?
my colour is just blurr
from dark to light it's all mix together
though finally i get success in graduate from my major
but i still have any problem..
still
what should i do after i graduate
what i will be???
that's big question in my mind
i don't have direction to become what kind of person in the future..
yes so heavy for me to shape my life

i dont wanna lose any chance
i want to grow better
i want to develop in good way
i want people that important to me become proud of me
i wanna be the winner..

but to get all there
i must cure my life
cure my soul
cure my mind
cure my heart

stupid...heart...damn....fool...baka...
heart...
just the point now why i cant leave this deep hurt..
i wish you would feel the way i feel..